Bet's Journal v. 5.0

I am a very lazy person, sloth all the way for me. This means that all through my years of chronic depression it's been hard to tell where my depression ends and my laziness begins which doesn't do much to make me feel any better, you know. Well, I'm usually better in the summer and I think I haven't been as good as I am this particular summer in a long time, if ever actually. It's helping me see a bit clearer that my laziness isn't nearly as horribly profound as I thought it was and that all those times I didn't want to go to school or work, or even a gathering of people of any kind, it wasn't only because I was a no good, lazy homebody. sure, that was a part of it, but for the most part, it was my illness.

I figured this out big time today. One of the women working in the kitchen told me that I wouldn't be working on Monday. My normal reaction to this should be sheer joy and while I'm happy I get to stay up late on Sunday too, my initial reaction was, "Are you guys crazy? Mondays are really busy!" I then hoped she was wrong and asked the shift manager and found out that I indeed do have Monday off. It made me fret about how everyone would be out of clean stuff by the time I got back. I'd probably work even harder if I didn't have weak and tiny feet holding up a huge body and thus I'm tired really fast and need to sit down a lot. I'm just glad it's the sort of job where I actually can do that without any hassle. I get shit done, yo.

I heard a song I really like on the radio on the way home and expletetives had been deleted. It really offended me for the following reason.

The song was Tear You Apart by She Wants Revenge, a really twisted, violent and awesome song. The chorus is as follows:

I want to hold you close
Skin pressed against me tight
Lie still, and close your eyes girl
So lovely, it feels so right

I want to hold you close
Soft breasts, beating heart
As I whisper in your ear

I want to fucking tear you apart.

Now if you're going to be bitching about this song being offensive, are you really going to tell me that the only word you have a problem with in there is "fucking"? So it's okay to tear a girl apart, as long as you don't swear while you do it? So yeah, that was basically all. That song does not offend me, it's as twisted as my twisty brain, but it offends me that people who do take offense always take offense to cursing and sex long before they even blink at violence. Fuck you, censors. You suck.

I was pimping this in a discussion comm where they asked us to pimp a show and I just think it's sad not a lot of people watch this (that I know anyway).

Quite the eventful week I've had. A test on Monday including a 500 word essay, written by hand with no table as it was taken in a damn theater hall. That was interesting! Another test at home which I missed the half of because I fell asleep - can you say noob? All together now, Noooob!


But all that fades in comparison to the crazy amount of pride I'm feeling right now. My mom was competing with two others in this little quiz show we have. Towns compete and she got roped into representing the town she currently lives in. She did so well and she looked so great and was so eloquent and funny. It's like all my life I always knew my mom's super smart and funny and awesome and now finally everyone gets to see it too!

Link to the show on ruv.is: http://dagskra.ruv.is/sjonvarpid/4566845/2010/10/15/ My mom's on the second team introduced and can be easily recognized as the... only female on that team. :3

Facebook is full of bragging and beaming and happiness right now. I'm exploding with pride! ^_^

As if her mere presence there hadn't been awesome enough, her team won!

She's here now, checking her mail and being cute and glowing. I think she's been a bit hard on herself lately and this really was a huge pick-me-up for her (and us). So PREEEEEN!

ETA: pride for me = inability to form coherent sentences. Suck it up, I'm too sleepy to rewrite XD;

a cute clip with the Avatar crew. Mainly because Worthington looks adorably shy at the mention of sex scenes and there's a funny RDJ quote in there. Sigourney is totally cute too, bwah. Spoilery for the movie like whoa though so watch out.
( vid within )

Do you know that feeling of almost depressing awe you get when you look at art? I'm obsessed with a few music videos right now that make me feel that way.

They all have Karin Dreijer Andersson doing vocals (Fever Ray / The Knife)

One is in collaboration with Röyksoppe, called : What else is there? I saw it AGES ago and always wanted to find it again. Then found it just a couple of days ago and found out it was the same singer as Fever Ray! Hee.

Second one is Fever Ray: If I had a Heart. Haunted house, haunting video!

The third is also Fever Ray. When I grow up. The girl in it makes me want to write a mental girl in the zombie game I'm in. It inspires like crazy - no pun intended.

Turns out at least two of these are directed by Martin De Thurah so I think I want to eat his brain.

What have you seen lately that makes you shiver and happy-sad and inspired?

Tobba was a sweetheart and took me to see Terminator: Salvation, her treat (because I'm broke and pathetic)! Yay! ♥
All in all, it took me a while to decide whether I liked the film or not. I liked parts of it very very much but then... I hated parts of it too. Balancing that and figuring out which weighed more was hard. I'd watch the first half again but I'm not so sure about the rest.

Beneath the cut are some major spoilers for Terminator Salvation, not overly coherent but who needs that? So click at your own risk.
( There is a room in this building stocked with full-sized naked Austrian men. Please make this go away, please. )

Penny: i'll see it when it comes out on dvd
Me: yeah
Me: funnily, there was so much action on the first part of the movie I was kind of leaning back going, "I'm sure it's easier to see what's going on on DVD" XD
Penny: wow
Penny: that's.. kinda not good

I'm updating my journal to pimp this game at you. To try to stop myself from playing at least for a few minutes!

Man, I had a laugh at it yesterday and today I'm taking part with my somewhat untrustworthy mousepad!

The game is based on Broken Telephone (Or Chinese Whispers as some know it as) and it's a bit like Broken Telephone meets pictionary. It's just addictive as hell and hilarious to boot.

this one is one of my favorites so far.
Oh and I'm tweety on there! If you have private games going ;)

I just watched Twilight and laughed my ass off for at least half of it. It was ridiculous and tacky but also surprisingly pretty and entertaining. In all its badness. One thing I would like to give them kudos for though is the wardrobe and hair department. They dressed like average teenagers and I really liked that Bella's hair looked normal and she wore very basic clothes you'd find a teenager living in a cold climate wearing. It was refreshing!

But anyway. So now I've seen Twilight. Sparkle Motion. Maybe it's Maybelline.

Of course it was really hard to take it seriously after reading this and this but I think even without having read those two, this movie is just wonderfully ridiculous!


So here. Keeping up with the theme of sparkle motion, please click the babies:



Additionally, I watched Southland Tales with my brother and holy fuck. Holy fuck. That's another ridiculously awesome, bizarre, amazing, ludicrous, random weirdness of a movie. Richard Kelly is a magnificent bastard. People who hate on it obviously took it way too seriously.

Loved it. In a weird I'm not quite sure what the fuck I'm watching kind of way.

Meme: Comment to this post and I will give you five subjects/things I associate you with. Then post this in your LJ and elaborate on the subjects given.

keksmitmilch gave me these five: Praelitis, bunnies, family, writing, TV shows.

Without further ado!

Praelites
My favorite game! It has eaten my soul and made me a part of its nutrition base rather than shit me out unhappy and frustrated like most games do. It's helped me grow as a writer and allowed me to bring characters to life that I would have ignored otherwise.

My characters there, in order of appearance:
Rose Dailey
Nate Alden
Aaron Lancaster
Frank Alden
Ian Choosearandomlastname

Most of them have links to their logs at the bottom if you're curious to read any. I luff them all!

Bunnies
You've heard of the crazy cat ladies? I'm the crazy bunny lady. Okay I don't have a HORDE, but I have three and I luff them. They don't give me allergies either so double love for them. I first got Penelope Pip, when I was still unsure if I should get a bunny. I'd spent about a month reading all I could find about them to be sure if I could handle the responsibility and I was still pondering. Then I saw this white little girl sitting all alone in the pet store. People apparently didn't want her because she looked dirty. She has some grey and pale yellow-brown in her fur and a lot on her feet, people? Are wankers. She's such a lady, very proper, but also brave, curious, strong and funny.

I needed a buddy for her and this was back before there was adoption available for bunnies in Iceland, or at least none I could find. so I headed back and I bought Benjamin Boo. He was kind of the opposite of Pip. Scared (still is, scaredy bunny, scared of everything), distrustful, grumpy. But they bonded right away and have been inseperable since! He was always sick for the longest time, always something wrong with him. After he got neutered his left hindleg went numb and he couldn't feel it. There'd been a vet mistake (they shouldn't use Ketamine on bunnies but they still do! Their legs are too small for the needle so there's a risk of paralyzis, vets SHOULD use gas like they do on kittens). After dealing with constantly trying to bandage it because Boo kept gnawing on it, it had to be amputated. Today he's far healthier, if a little too fat but he gets a lot of exercise and I don't feed him too many treats... He's just gimpy and fat like his mommy ^_^

My third bunny wasn't planned at all. Broddi Bítukall. My friend got him for her other bunny but they hated each other. I bunnysat for her one time and when she took him home he was miserable. She asked if I wanted him and sure, why the hell not. He's aggressive, dominant, grumpy and difficult and he doesn't get along with the other bunnies so we have to keep him seperate from them. Still, he's hilarious and snuggly too so it isn't all bad. I've tried to bond the three of them which is tricky since it could destroy the bond Boo and Pip have but it seems to be too strong for that! Yay. He's too dominant and aggressive and he actually made Pip ...whimper. o.O So yeah... let's just keep them apart.


Family
Right! My family is huge. But tiny. Yup, that makes no sense does it. Well, my dad moved away when I was three and had a horde of bebes! Okay, four, but still. So I have this giant family on the other side of the planet, literally. Back here at home there's me, mom and my brother, Gunnar. To be fair, grandma's now kind of in that mix too after my granddad died. I have oodles and oodles of cousins and aunts and uncles who are freakin awesome but I'm not freakin awesome so I don't talk to them as often as I'd like. As for family plans - unless something (me) changes drastically in the next 2-3 years, I won't be having kids. I don't see myself in a relationship even, I'll just be that odd spinster with bunnies. This doesn't make me sad either! Sometimes I think it'd be nice to have a partner but I don't feel like I'm the type. I prefer writing emotions over actually having them. Of course I won't rule out that one day I might meet someone and break all my rules- that's what life does to you, it throws you a curveball and whatnot, but right now? Yup, that's the future plan. Bunnies. Writing. Spinster. I'll just be Signorina Bet!

Writing
I used to write poetry and whatnot when I was younger and while angsty and teenagery, some of it was apparently really good. Writing is something I want to do for a living, whether it's editing other people's work or writing little articles or actually going ahead and finding an artist to put together graphic novels. That would be ace! I was planning on going into social work but nope. Why deny it. I may not have a talented bone in my body but I have an artistic soul so I'll just have to fake it! ;)

TV shows
For someone who never watches TV I sure as hell watch a lot of shows! I download them and if I like them I buy them on DVD. Because I like to hoard good things. I'm currently devouring Being Human, Medium, TSCC, Life and Skins and my all time favorites are Farscape, Firefly, Supernatural, Law&Order SVU... I'm probably forgetting some but yeah, I love TV shows. Movies tend to drag on and on and I'm not always in the mood for that but 40 minutes of compact action awesomeness? I'm in!