When it rains, it pours.

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Boo is sick and can't get a vet appointment until Monday. Yay? He has leaking eyes so it could be serious and if it's a bacterial infection - it means all bunnies must be treated, me thinks. And if it's a bacterial infection, I want him to see the vet NOW. He's clear right now but it's not something I want to risk... Also, where the fuck do I get money for a vet? As if that wasn't bad enough, Gunnar busted a tire on the car. If we're super duper lucky it won't be expensive to fix. If we're super duper unlucky, it'll cost dozens of thousands... Fucking felgur- which I have no idea what are called in English. Things on tires. That are expensive. JOY.

My finances right now are as follows. NO income because there's no jobs and you can't get unemployment if you're a student. Because apparently they don't want people to go to school anymore, it's so much easier to just be unemployed, yo.

So, right now: No income save for the tiny rental benefits and a small support from the insurance. My brother gets 50% unemployment crap and it just barely covers the rent. The loan for school hasn't come through and when it does, it'll go straight to the bank account where ... I needed a loan for the loan because our loan system has gotten bizarre.

So I'm about 800.000 ISK in debt on the bank, 80.000 ISK in debt on the Visa. 70.000 due in rent which my brother thankfully can cover as long as he behaves with the unemployment nonsense. Add to this the car and the vet that are coming up and I just have no fucking clue how I'm going to deal.

I was so emotionally drained today. Went all over town with Tobba and it wasn't until I forgot to buy sugar for grandma and had to go back that I totally collapsed and started crying. It was so damn stupid. Right now I'm doing a good job not dealing with it. I mean, there's nothing I -can- do. I'm waiting for an answer on benefits which won't even cover one tenth of what I need to pay if I get it but it'd be SOMETHING.

So I absolutely broke my new chocolate rules last night AND today because fuck this. Oh, AND I'm on my periods so I'm twice as vulnerable about all this bullshit as it is.

I need a sugarmommy/sugardaddy ;_;


To sum up. This day sucked. I am broke, bills pile up, Boo is sick, car needs repairs, I'm emotionally drained.

I had a weird dream as I was waking up. November 16th. Hug the one you care about. My grandparents' old house had been trashed, broken mirrors and furniture everywhere. Get something from mom's pocket. It felt like I had to remember all that.