Direction.

When I started school I had every intention of later going to learn sociology stuff at uni when I graduate. But today I have completely changed my mind. I have an artist's nature and that sort of work would CRUSH MY SOUL. It has thus been decided that I shall talk to a counselor to find something that suits me better and if nothing pops up I'm taking English. I'll want to work as an editor and hopefully a writer. I feel relieved having made this decision, like I'm finally on the right track somehow. I wouldn't really have come to this conclusion without the chat I had with my brother as I'd been pretty wishy-washy about the whole thing up until today. I informed mom and she said she was super relieved to hear it because being a social worker would CRUSH MY SOUL. Oh hai there brain twin.

I'm going to look into the options of learning from home too for the most part. I'm feeling optimistic and a bit more alive today than I have been in a while. There's also a lot of great things going on in my roleplay world. Great big dramaz at Praelitis and I have some big scenes in the works. Having so much fun and my confidence in myself is better than it has been in a long time.

All this and I haven't even started listening to the hypnosis cd I bought! The one my brother went, "Oh no please don't tell me you paid money for that!" But fuck that, I believe in this stuff and maybe it'll help me some. If not - at least I tried!

Just came home from dinner with mom and grandma, we had such a good time (and such good food!). I'm still not in the clear but I'm feeling a lot better.

Also. Werewolves.